Pee-ka-boo. Hehe. Yeah, pretty lame. I was gonna declare this blog officially dead (at one point there were arseholes who tried to sell viagra here) but I thought, hey...it has served it's purpose for many years so I decided against it. Whether I'll ever go back to updating regularly is still very much in question but who cares? It's my bloody blog so I'll do whatever the hell I wanna do with it. So there.
The thing is, with the I-Phone, I've pretty much uploaded all pics taken to my Facebook account. Sadly, I hardly use my digi cam anymore. Ok, I'll make an effort to use my digi cam once in a while as well as to transfer & upload some of the pics taken to my very pathetic blog. Okay, now that all's that said & done, let me talk about my life.
February was definitely a tumultous month. Lemme see. I lost weight only to gain it back and now I plan to lose it again. Grrrrr.... It never ends.
Hubby and I met with a few hiccups but we're still gonna try working towards a better relationship. I mean what's the point of trying so hard to let people think you have a perfect lovey dovey relationship when you don't? To me, arguments & disagreements give character to our marriage. I mean, I don't look forward to them, but hey... this is life and I ain't backing down. Roshan, you're stuck with me :)
Kids? Ayra turned 7! We were supposed to throw her a grand party but decided against it at the last minute. We threw her a mini belated party but she says she's pretty pleased so that's pretty good. She's pretty much enjoying school and has been doing rather well. I helped to prepare her for "show-and-tell" but most of the work was done independently. She's churning pretty good grades so I"m pretty happy. The most important thing is she's happy and healthy. That's all I can ever ask for.
We finally bought her a proper desktop computer. Following a friend's advice, we went to search for it at Sim Lim Square. We came home hours later with a simple pc that costs so much less than what we would have spent at a large electrical or computer shop. Furthermore, with my LDS allowance given by MOE, I end up paying almost nothing for it. Ayra can now sit through her academic CD Roms, play on line games, paint and type as well as do her E-Learning assignments at home. Cool.
Actually, I would love to spend more time with her this 1 week school holiday but as luck would have it, yesterday was my only day off. For today and the rest of the week, I'll be in school either teaching, marking or preparing stuff. Shitloads of stuff. Haha. Not funny. I'm not gonna bitch about work though coz work is work. It pays and if I didn't work, we would starve. So there.
Fuddin. Still growing. :) My cutie pie is still a hottie. Hehe. With help from his teacher Bei Xuan and the other therapists from Rainbow, he's progressing... slowly but surely. He's also more receptive now, pretty happy most times and more "manja" than before. Of course, every day of my life, I am reminded that my son will never lead a "normal" life but you know what? I really don't care about what society thinks anymore. The bastards who have put him down because of his size or behavior...just fuck off. Imbeciles such as you...yeah you fuckwit... ain't worth my precious time.
And that brings me to a conclusion coz I need to end soon (test gonna finish...yeah yeah I'm in class again)... that life is short. From this moment on, I will not waste my time caring or bothering with people who are negative or whatever it is they do that piss me off. I'm just gonna get on with my life and do the best I can. I'm going to erase unpleasant people, things, places, incidents or whatever have you from my memory from this moment on. From this moment, I will not gripe anymore. I will focus on the positive. Selective memory you can call it...I call it an attempt to be HAPPY! My job is just a means to an end... I will not forget that. I will not let money (or the lack of it) consume me. While I will do what I can, I am only ONE person. My mantra for my students and my children is "...As long as you do your best..." will apply to me as well form this moment on. So there.
My husband, my children, my parents, my siblings, my extended family, my (few) friends... these are the people I will care about and concern myself with. I've realized that the focus should be on people and not things or incidents or whatever. It's people. Today, I will start being a better person. I can't be kind to everybody, I'm just not built that way. I'm independent, cynical, brash, outspoken and too honest at times but while I will try to tone down, I'll never be a Mother Theresa, You get me?
Alright...enough talk. Gonna go. Will upload photos soon. If I don't, add me on Facebook and you can see all the pics there. See ya...
