Uh huh.
Just wanna blog something different this time. I'm gonna feature my babies!
First up is Ayra.
Full Name: Nur Ayra Binte Mohamad Roshan
Date of Birth: 12/03/03
Occupation: Student @ De La Salle School
Height: 121 cm
Weight: about 20 kgs (underweight)
Favorite Shows: Jihan (Indonesian soap opera), Cartoons (Nickelodean, etc.)
Favorite food: Small popiah, chicken rice, ice cream, chocolate, sweets,
Favorite drink: Ice lemon tea
Favorite Book:
Favorite Toy:
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
No Turning Back
Hi all. As usual, my students are doing work so I'm taking the chance to blog whatever I can. I've been insanely busy. The 1 week school holiday came and went. I only managed to stay home 3 out of the 7 days and this includes the weekend. I'm stuffed and so here it comes...the ANNOUNCEMENT... I am quitting!!!! Haha!!! We (hubby and me) decided that it's best that I spend more time with the kids, especially Fuddin. Financially, we're gonna be fried (haha) but you know what? It's ok. I only live once and I'm not getting any younger and I don't want to spend whatever little I have of my life being a slave to my job. It's not that I don't like my job. I love what I do. In fact, I'm an effing good teacher... but there lies my fault...I'm pretty good at teaching and not much more. Administratively, I'm pretty bad. I'm not much of a disciplinarian either. I hate the tons of marking and the extras we teachers have to do like "Sports Day", "Cross Country" and what have you. I just want to teach. It's just not right. I am in school for almost 12 hours. By the time I'm home, it's 7 and I clean the house, check the kid's homework, play with the kids, etc till their bedtime at about 10.30pm. This leaves me about 1 hour and a half to mark or do some work before bedtime which is midnight. Weekends are not much better, I try and fit in as much work as I can. To cut the story short, I've lived this life for a long time, it's time I moved on. I am going to take control of my life and change it the way I want to. I am NOT gonna be a coward and carry on with the status quo. I do not want to be on my deathbed twenty, thirty years from now and regret the life I led or the choices I made. Yes, I've made many mistakes and made many bad choices before and I don't think it's possible for me to not continue doing so but I have a good feeling about this. I believe I will be happier. Yes, I will be poorer and yes, we will have to tighten our belts but no, I will not regret my decision. It's not that I'm gonna stay home and rot though. I'm still gonna teach... either private tuition, at a centre and who knows, maybe even open up my own tuition centre one day? I don't really care. I just want to do something for myself. It's been so long since I put myself first.
No more file checks! No more marking standardizations! No more marking hundreds of scripts in the shortest time, no more lesson observations, no more irritating HODs on my back, no more office politics, no more having to be nice to colleagues when you feel like crap, no more waking up at 5am, no more dreading Mondays, no more setting and vetting papers, no more chasing certain assholes for their work when in actual fact I don't give a damn about those good-for-nothing buggers. No more attendance taking during assemblies, no more CCAs, no more effing camps, sports day, cross country and loads of other crappy activities meant to nurture the whole child, no more ranking, no more trying to get and sustain 40 odd childrens' attention at one go, no more school dinners or teambuilding crap, no more lesson record file, no more, no more, no more........
Haha...but then there's no fixed income or bonuses either... but hey, let's be positive. Let's worry about that when the time comes. If we have to cut down on the expenses, we will. As long as my family and me don't starve, we'll survive.
So there, I'll bitch another day. Till then, let me bask in my favorite daydream...which will soon be a reality.
No more file checks! No more marking standardizations! No more marking hundreds of scripts in the shortest time, no more lesson observations, no more irritating HODs on my back, no more office politics, no more having to be nice to colleagues when you feel like crap, no more waking up at 5am, no more dreading Mondays, no more setting and vetting papers, no more chasing certain assholes for their work when in actual fact I don't give a damn about those good-for-nothing buggers. No more attendance taking during assemblies, no more CCAs, no more effing camps, sports day, cross country and loads of other crappy activities meant to nurture the whole child, no more ranking, no more trying to get and sustain 40 odd childrens' attention at one go, no more school dinners or teambuilding crap, no more lesson record file, no more, no more, no more........
Haha...but then there's no fixed income or bonuses either... but hey, let's be positive. Let's worry about that when the time comes. If we have to cut down on the expenses, we will. As long as my family and me don't starve, we'll survive.
So there, I'll bitch another day. Till then, let me bask in my favorite daydream...which will soon be a reality.
Monday, March 15, 2010
I'm baaaaacccckkkkkk.....
Pee-ka-boo. Hehe. Yeah, pretty lame. I was gonna declare this blog officially dead (at one point there were arseholes who tried to sell viagra here) but I thought, hey...it has served it's purpose for many years so I decided against it. Whether I'll ever go back to updating regularly is still very much in question but who cares? It's my bloody blog so I'll do whatever the hell I wanna do with it. So there.
The thing is, with the I-Phone, I've pretty much uploaded all pics taken to my Facebook account. Sadly, I hardly use my digi cam anymore. Ok, I'll make an effort to use my digi cam once in a while as well as to transfer & upload some of the pics taken to my very pathetic blog. Okay, now that all's that said & done, let me talk about my life.
February was definitely a tumultous month. Lemme see. I lost weight only to gain it back and now I plan to lose it again. Grrrrr.... It never ends.
Hubby and I met with a few hiccups but we're still gonna try working towards a better relationship. I mean what's the point of trying so hard to let people think you have a perfect lovey dovey relationship when you don't? To me, arguments & disagreements give character to our marriage. I mean, I don't look forward to them, but hey... this is life and I ain't backing down. Roshan, you're stuck with me :)
Kids? Ayra turned 7! We were supposed to throw her a grand party but decided against it at the last minute. We threw her a mini belated party but she says she's pretty pleased so that's pretty good. She's pretty much enjoying school and has been doing rather well. I helped to prepare her for "show-and-tell" but most of the work was done independently. She's churning pretty good grades so I"m pretty happy. The most important thing is she's happy and healthy. That's all I can ever ask for.
We finally bought her a proper desktop computer. Following a friend's advice, we went to search for it at Sim Lim Square. We came home hours later with a simple pc that costs so much less than what we would have spent at a large electrical or computer shop. Furthermore, with my LDS allowance given by MOE, I end up paying almost nothing for it. Ayra can now sit through her academic CD Roms, play on line games, paint and type as well as do her E-Learning assignments at home. Cool.
Actually, I would love to spend more time with her this 1 week school holiday but as luck would have it, yesterday was my only day off. For today and the rest of the week, I'll be in school either teaching, marking or preparing stuff. Shitloads of stuff. Haha. Not funny. I'm not gonna bitch about work though coz work is work. It pays and if I didn't work, we would starve. So there.
Fuddin. Still growing. :) My cutie pie is still a hottie. Hehe. With help from his teacher Bei Xuan and the other therapists from Rainbow, he's progressing... slowly but surely. He's also more receptive now, pretty happy most times and more "manja" than before. Of course, every day of my life, I am reminded that my son will never lead a "normal" life but you know what? I really don't care about what society thinks anymore. The bastards who have put him down because of his size or behavior...just fuck off. Imbeciles such as you...yeah you fuckwit... ain't worth my precious time.
And that brings me to a conclusion coz I need to end soon (test gonna finish...yeah yeah I'm in class again)... that life is short. From this moment on, I will not waste my time caring or bothering with people who are negative or whatever it is they do that piss me off. I'm just gonna get on with my life and do the best I can. I'm going to erase unpleasant people, things, places, incidents or whatever have you from my memory from this moment on. From this moment, I will not gripe anymore. I will focus on the positive. Selective memory you can call it...I call it an attempt to be HAPPY! My job is just a means to an end... I will not forget that. I will not let money (or the lack of it) consume me. While I will do what I can, I am only ONE person. My mantra for my students and my children is "...As long as you do your best..." will apply to me as well form this moment on. So there.
My husband, my children, my parents, my siblings, my extended family, my (few) friends... these are the people I will care about and concern myself with. I've realized that the focus should be on people and not things or incidents or whatever. It's people. Today, I will start being a better person. I can't be kind to everybody, I'm just not built that way. I'm independent, cynical, brash, outspoken and too honest at times but while I will try to tone down, I'll never be a Mother Theresa, You get me?
Alright...enough talk. Gonna go. Will upload photos soon. If I don't, add me on Facebook and you can see all the pics there. See ya...
The thing is, with the I-Phone, I've pretty much uploaded all pics taken to my Facebook account. Sadly, I hardly use my digi cam anymore. Ok, I'll make an effort to use my digi cam once in a while as well as to transfer & upload some of the pics taken to my very pathetic blog. Okay, now that all's that said & done, let me talk about my life.
February was definitely a tumultous month. Lemme see. I lost weight only to gain it back and now I plan to lose it again. Grrrrr.... It never ends.
Hubby and I met with a few hiccups but we're still gonna try working towards a better relationship. I mean what's the point of trying so hard to let people think you have a perfect lovey dovey relationship when you don't? To me, arguments & disagreements give character to our marriage. I mean, I don't look forward to them, but hey... this is life and I ain't backing down. Roshan, you're stuck with me :)
Kids? Ayra turned 7! We were supposed to throw her a grand party but decided against it at the last minute. We threw her a mini belated party but she says she's pretty pleased so that's pretty good. She's pretty much enjoying school and has been doing rather well. I helped to prepare her for "show-and-tell" but most of the work was done independently. She's churning pretty good grades so I"m pretty happy. The most important thing is she's happy and healthy. That's all I can ever ask for.
We finally bought her a proper desktop computer. Following a friend's advice, we went to search for it at Sim Lim Square. We came home hours later with a simple pc that costs so much less than what we would have spent at a large electrical or computer shop. Furthermore, with my LDS allowance given by MOE, I end up paying almost nothing for it. Ayra can now sit through her academic CD Roms, play on line games, paint and type as well as do her E-Learning assignments at home. Cool.
Actually, I would love to spend more time with her this 1 week school holiday but as luck would have it, yesterday was my only day off. For today and the rest of the week, I'll be in school either teaching, marking or preparing stuff. Shitloads of stuff. Haha. Not funny. I'm not gonna bitch about work though coz work is work. It pays and if I didn't work, we would starve. So there.
Fuddin. Still growing. :) My cutie pie is still a hottie. Hehe. With help from his teacher Bei Xuan and the other therapists from Rainbow, he's progressing... slowly but surely. He's also more receptive now, pretty happy most times and more "manja" than before. Of course, every day of my life, I am reminded that my son will never lead a "normal" life but you know what? I really don't care about what society thinks anymore. The bastards who have put him down because of his size or behavior...just fuck off. Imbeciles such as you...yeah you fuckwit... ain't worth my precious time.
And that brings me to a conclusion coz I need to end soon (test gonna finish...yeah yeah I'm in class again)... that life is short. From this moment on, I will not waste my time caring or bothering with people who are negative or whatever it is they do that piss me off. I'm just gonna get on with my life and do the best I can. I'm going to erase unpleasant people, things, places, incidents or whatever have you from my memory from this moment on. From this moment, I will not gripe anymore. I will focus on the positive. Selective memory you can call it...I call it an attempt to be HAPPY! My job is just a means to an end... I will not forget that. I will not let money (or the lack of it) consume me. While I will do what I can, I am only ONE person. My mantra for my students and my children is "...As long as you do your best..." will apply to me as well form this moment on. So there.
My husband, my children, my parents, my siblings, my extended family, my (few) friends... these are the people I will care about and concern myself with. I've realized that the focus should be on people and not things or incidents or whatever. It's people. Today, I will start being a better person. I can't be kind to everybody, I'm just not built that way. I'm independent, cynical, brash, outspoken and too honest at times but while I will try to tone down, I'll never be a Mother Theresa, You get me?
Alright...enough talk. Gonna go. Will upload photos soon. If I don't, add me on Facebook and you can see all the pics there. See ya...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
On Borrowed Time...
In class. The kids having a break before their remedial. I haven't been updating so here I am. I have a few photos to upload. Hope I'll get round to it sooner than later.
Just came back from the sec 4 camp. Exhausting! Eventhough my P gave me permission to go home every night, it was still tiring which is kinda weird coz I hardly did anything. Us teachers just hung around, did some marking and that was about it. On the second day, we played some really cool games...like mind games (Polar Bear?) and some medieval strategic card game which is way cool. I won by the way. Hehe.
Got to know more and interact with the other teachers there. They're very nice. I'm glad we had the camp. The kids enjoyed their time there too I think although they seem dead tired in class today. Haha. Poor kids.
And my little kids? They're doing alright. Ayra's on a school trip even as I write. She's at Health Zone. Actually she's been there before but she was still excited about it last night. She's also doing pretty well with her school work. I'm glad. I'm really not asking for the sun or the moon; just that my daughter grows up to be well adjusted and happy. If she's smart, that's an added bonus, if she's not then let it be. As long as her values are right and she is a good person, I'm happy :)
As for my baby boy, he's adjusting to school well. He no longer resist going to school. Feedback from his Teacher, Bei Xuan, has been favorable. He's pretty much a happy trooper except when his routine or route is changed. Still, they're trying to get him to be more receptive to changes. Well kudos to them for even trying!
And oh! My good friend gave birth to a baby boy earlier this week! So exciting. I still can't believe she's a mommy. Anyway, Fiza, if you get to read this, I just wanna tell you that I feel you'll be a wonderful mommy! Mateen is really lucky to have you and I'll see you soon k babe?
Hell, only 10 mintes left. I'm almost never not busy now but in way, I don't mind. Roshan thinks I'm shooting myself in the foot for trying to be a perfectionist. Yeah I guess I have to loosen up a bit yeah? I'm sorry baby if I drive you up the wall at times. Thanks for being patient and not giving up on me. ......101...... :)
Ok gotta go. Hopefully will write soon. Stay sane people... I'll do likewise.
Just came back from the sec 4 camp. Exhausting! Eventhough my P gave me permission to go home every night, it was still tiring which is kinda weird coz I hardly did anything. Us teachers just hung around, did some marking and that was about it. On the second day, we played some really cool games...like mind games (Polar Bear?) and some medieval strategic card game which is way cool. I won by the way. Hehe.
Got to know more and interact with the other teachers there. They're very nice. I'm glad we had the camp. The kids enjoyed their time there too I think although they seem dead tired in class today. Haha. Poor kids.
And my little kids? They're doing alright. Ayra's on a school trip even as I write. She's at Health Zone. Actually she's been there before but she was still excited about it last night. She's also doing pretty well with her school work. I'm glad. I'm really not asking for the sun or the moon; just that my daughter grows up to be well adjusted and happy. If she's smart, that's an added bonus, if she's not then let it be. As long as her values are right and she is a good person, I'm happy :)
As for my baby boy, he's adjusting to school well. He no longer resist going to school. Feedback from his Teacher, Bei Xuan, has been favorable. He's pretty much a happy trooper except when his routine or route is changed. Still, they're trying to get him to be more receptive to changes. Well kudos to them for even trying!
And oh! My good friend gave birth to a baby boy earlier this week! So exciting. I still can't believe she's a mommy. Anyway, Fiza, if you get to read this, I just wanna tell you that I feel you'll be a wonderful mommy! Mateen is really lucky to have you and I'll see you soon k babe?
Hell, only 10 mintes left. I'm almost never not busy now but in way, I don't mind. Roshan thinks I'm shooting myself in the foot for trying to be a perfectionist. Yeah I guess I have to loosen up a bit yeah? I'm sorry baby if I drive you up the wall at times. Thanks for being patient and not giving up on me. ......101...... :)
Ok gotta go. Hopefully will write soon. Stay sane people... I'll do likewise.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
School's In!
Yup, both my children are back to being busy students! Ayra started her education at a "proper" school on a good note. As expected, she's being an eager beaver, always wanting to tell us about her day in school. She's made quite a number of friends and seems to be settling in well. I'm glad that there's not too much homework (hardly any) from her teachers but I have a feeling that things will change soon. Ayra has also been rather unwell and has developed a rather mean cough. Hope she gets better soon. Poor girl. She seems tired nowadays and there's hardly time for recreation. It doesn't help that Mommy and Daddy are just as tired and busy either. Still, I 'm positive we'll be able to work out something to balance out work and play. Stay strong honey; things can only get better.
Then there's my Fuddin. After settling the Yishun Park's we-don't-have-a-bus-plying-CCK-so-make-your-own-arrangement-we-don't-really-care fiasco, my Baby is once again a full fledged student. 5 times a week! Woohoo! No more being cooped up at home. It's a welcome change. Grandpa says he's been coping well except when he's hungry! Haha...after swimming on Wednesday, Fuddin actually cried on the bus all the way back home. We soon found out he was hungry therefore GRUMPY! We still haven't given up hope on trying to get him to lose some weight so we'll see how that goes.
As for me, I'm alright. Still terribly busy but then if I recall correctly, I've always been busy! Haha! Which reminds me...I should be doing something else now...
K World, talk soon.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Life Goes On....
It's been a crazy week. It is an understatement to say that I have been busy. I'm so busy at work that I haven't even been to the canteen. The good news is that I've lost weight! Haha. I like. However, I do not want to continue being so busy. I haven't even be able to spend time with my babies. Ayra reaches home at almost 7 and next week, Fuddin starts school. I'm only left with a few hours to be with them each weekeday and during those precious few hours, I have to clean the house, fold clothes, bathe them.....blah blah blah.
Still, I am optimistic about the whole thing. I suppose I'm new to the school and therefore, I will need a bit more time to orientate myself. The staff here are ok. They're pretty nice although there are a few "sour plums". Still, I don't see myself being too chummy with them. I guess I just can't click with anyone here. Still, I don't mind. I end up being more productive I suppose. While I had plenty of friends at Dunearn, I was also sidetracked from work more times than I should have been.
As for the kids, they're nice and generally better behaved than those in Dunearn. Still, I miss those rascals in Dunearn. No point being nostalgic though. Life goes on. Just be positive, look to the future and do our best. Right?
Alright I've gotta go and do more work. I'm really looking forward to the weekend.
Still, I am optimistic about the whole thing. I suppose I'm new to the school and therefore, I will need a bit more time to orientate myself. The staff here are ok. They're pretty nice although there are a few "sour plums". Still, I don't see myself being too chummy with them. I guess I just can't click with anyone here. Still, I don't mind. I end up being more productive I suppose. While I had plenty of friends at Dunearn, I was also sidetracked from work more times than I should have been.
As for the kids, they're nice and generally better behaved than those in Dunearn. Still, I miss those rascals in Dunearn. No point being nostalgic though. Life goes on. Just be positive, look to the future and do our best. Right?
Alright I've gotta go and do more work. I'm really looking forward to the weekend.
Friday, January 1, 2010
It's the llittle things in life that matters....
Its the first day of 2010. No countdown for me. Hubby was working. Still, I'm looking forward to 2010. A year of new beginnings for myself and many of my loved ones.
New schools for Syahmi (K1), Syafiq,(sec 1) Ryan (playgroup), Fuddin (EStep year 2), Ayra (P1) and me!
Anyway, I got pretty pissed with Yishun Park, Fuddin's school, the other day. We had brought him along to meet his new teacher and everything seemed fine. Fuddin was pretty cooperative and even started doing "tasks" once he stepped into the classroom and saw some activities in a corner. We were pleased but I received a RUDE shock when I was told by the office that there's no school bus plying Chua Chu Kang. Hmm, after making many frantic calls, it'll suffice to say that no one wanted to help me. So what is my son supposed to do? Be a school dropout at 5 yrs old cause he has a grossly incompetent Principal who can't even arrange my son's transport? Ok I won't elaborate any more but bottomline is, Fuddin has to take a cab with Grandad for the time being. Believe me, I'm not gonna sit back and do nothing. I will get that bus to pick him up and send him to school. Just watch me. Nincompoop.
Anyways, here's my baby with his new teacher and classrroom.
Here's Fuddin trying to get some PSP action by looking over Shauqi's shoulder. Hehe...so cute!
More pics of my baby.
Also celebrated my siblings' birthday. Just a small affair but a good 0ne nonetheless. Happy birthday my dearest (and only) bro and sis!
Ok one last thing. New Acquisitions! I like! An got me a Coach bag for our anniversary which was not too long ago.
And matching wedding bands....and matching I phones! Black for him and white for mua. I love my I phone. I really do. Hehe.
Ok that's it for now. Only the weeken left before all hell breaks loose. How divine...(wry smile).
Happy New Pear peeps..Stay sane..
New schools for Syahmi (K1), Syafiq,(sec 1) Ryan (playgroup), Fuddin (EStep year 2), Ayra (P1) and me!
Anyway, I got pretty pissed with Yishun Park, Fuddin's school, the other day. We had brought him along to meet his new teacher and everything seemed fine. Fuddin was pretty cooperative and even started doing "tasks" once he stepped into the classroom and saw some activities in a corner. We were pleased but I received a RUDE shock when I was told by the office that there's no school bus plying Chua Chu Kang. Hmm, after making many frantic calls, it'll suffice to say that no one wanted to help me. So what is my son supposed to do? Be a school dropout at 5 yrs old cause he has a grossly incompetent Principal who can't even arrange my son's transport? Ok I won't elaborate any more but bottomline is, Fuddin has to take a cab with Grandad for the time being. Believe me, I'm not gonna sit back and do nothing. I will get that bus to pick him up and send him to school. Just watch me. Nincompoop.
Anyways, here's my baby with his new teacher and classrroom.
Here's Fuddin trying to get some PSP action by looking over Shauqi's shoulder. Hehe...so cute!
More pics of my baby.
Also celebrated my siblings' birthday. Just a small affair but a good 0ne nonetheless. Happy birthday my dearest (and only) bro and sis!
Ok one last thing. New Acquisitions! I like! An got me a Coach bag for our anniversary which was not too long ago.
And matching wedding bands....and matching I phones! Black for him and white for mua. I love my I phone. I really do. Hehe.
Ok that's it for now. Only the weeken left before all hell breaks loose. How divine...(wry smile).
Happy New Pear peeps..Stay sane..
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